Lady Macbeth’s Diary Essay

What an carry disaster. What should have been a dignified occaion to mark my husbands crowing, has cease up with confusion. His first large(p) ceremonial state banquet has been ruined. The guests arrived and were asked to dramatise their places. To begin with things seemed very organised. then all of a sudden he began talking to thin air. People will think hes insane.My part in persuading him to kill the king had been crucial that is why I cant down the stairsstand why he didnt discern of his plans to kill Fleance and Banquo. Afterall, if it wasnt for me the murder of Duncan would have been an absolute disaster . I practically murdered him myself. I drugged the possets of the grooms sleeping in the knocked out(p)ermost chamber I laid the daggers ready all he had to do was the deed itself. Then I found him with two furrow-stained daggers which should have been leftover with the grooms, the supposed murderers.He was terrifed and incapable of returning to the murder scene so I had to do so, smearing the grooms with blood. When I returned I found him transfixed with thoughts of blood and guilt and once again I took charge of the situation. I told him to go and wash the blood from his hands. Perhaps he genuinely wants me to be simple of Banquos murder. Maybe it is his way of protecting me. It could be that he couldnt handle me being in charge of Duncans murder. He expertness want to prove that he can still do things for himself.My remorseless determination to make him king has overcome all his doubts. What has happened to the soldiery I married, who was a noble, brave and loyal subject of the rigtful king? I greet he is a man of great bravery, even of savagery on the battlefield, however, he seems a different man.Hes a great warrior whos used to making life-and-death decisions. He is a man of action but gets confused when he loses his sense of right and wrong. but his murders are unmannly. Maybe he is just a really brutal man. Maybe he is so mixed u p that he cannot anatomy out the difference between right and wrong. Perhaps he is under the power of the witches. Maybe he does not know what to do and is acting on the spurof the moment, without really thinking too often.Until now I was much more determined and strong. I now find myself on the edge. contrasted earlier I would have been able todo the most terrible deeds, I tincture that now that I could not have even carried out the murder of Duncan myself because the sleeping Duncan reminds me of my father. I am not a monster, im simply a wife trying to protect boost and support my husband.He says he is afflicted by terrible dreams. He seems almost to envy the dead King Duncan, who he says, sleeps well. Although Duncan is dead, Macbeth says that at least nothing can hurt him any more. His sleep is becoming tormented O full of scorpions is my mind, Banquo seems to him like a mischievous snake and his life is diseased, a fitful fever.Macbeth is king and I am his Queen we hav e achieved everything weve ever wanted. We are supposed to feel happy, excited and at the peak of our lives. Instead we feel threatened and unsafe. Our felicitousness is doubtful. He no longer tells me anything and trusts no one.He feels so advanced on this murderous course of action that ( like wade across a river of blood ) it is as easy to go on as it is to go back.